what do i want?

so...wot do i want to do in life...i dunno...
i wanna be a doctor, i wanna be a police, i wanna be a businessman...nah...those are during the good old times when i was still wot? ten?...i wan to be this, i want to be that....back then, anything that i want to be, seemed exciting and possible....n genuinely i want to be all those that i want to be....even till now....but, when ppl ask me now....i said i dunno altho inside my head, those words 'doc, police,etc' appear, not now lar...
when you grow up the whole picture changes, everything becomes more gloomy, more unreachale